What I wish I could say to you...

It's been the longest winter without you. I didn't know where to turn to. See, somehow I can't forget you after all that we've been through.
Who's there? No one. I thought that I deserve it but now I realize that I really didn't know. If you didn't notice you mean everything to me. Quickly I'm learning to love again. All I know is I'm going be ok. I thought I couldn't live without you. It's going to hurt when it heals too but it'll all get better in time. Even though I really love you I'm going to smile because I deserve to. It'll all get better in time. I couldn't turn on the TV without something there to remind me. Was it all that easy to just put aside your feelings? Since there's no more you and me it's time I let you go so I can be free and live my life how it should be. No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you. Yes I will.

I learned the hard way that they all say things you want to hear. You are not what I thought you were. Hello to high and dry! Make me think that I need you. I’m trying to make you hear me as I am. I believe there’s a way because I say.

I love you but I got to stay true. My morals got me on my knees. I’m begging please stop playing games. I don’t know what this is but you got me good just like you would. I don’t know what you do but you do it well. You got me begging you for mercy, why won’t release me? I said release me. Now you think that I will be something on the side but you got to understand that I need a man who can take my hand, yes I do.

In the night, I hear them talk about the coldest story ever told. Somewhere far along this road, she lost her soul to a man so heartless...How could you be so heartless? You need to watch the way you talking' to me. I mean after all the things that we've been through. I mean after all the things we got into. I know a lot of the things that you ain't told me and I did some things, but that’s the old me

I've been awake for a while now. You've got me feeling' like a child now because every time I see your bubbly face I get the tingles in a silly place. You make me smile please stay for a while now. Just take your time wherever you go. Every time you hold me in your arms I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth. It starts in my soul and I lose all control. When you kiss my nose, the feeling shows, because you make me smile. Baby, just take your time now holding me tight. Wherever you go be safe.

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore
Love is more than just a game for two and two in love can make it.

"Getting older isn't optional but growing up is."

Why does it seem that every guy I've ever dated subscribes to this philosophy? They also seem to all hide it so well right up until it jumps out at you and punches you in the gut. Even the guy who seems so confident in himself and ready for marriage and you think "wow, you're different" really isn't. It's lurking deep down in him and somehow I'm the one that manages to make it manifest itself. Great job Nadine!

Wall Street greed...

Last Friday, Sen. Claire McCaskill took to the Senate floor and said what I imagine (I hope) a lot of us have been thinking about Wall Street lately: "They don't get it. These people are idiots. You can't use taxpayer money to pay out $18 billion in bonuses...What planet are these people on?"1
Sen. McCaskill was reacting, and rightly so, to the $18.4 billion in bonuses that Wall Street bankers took home in 2008. $18.4 billion going to the people who crippled our economy with their recklessness and greed and then took $700 billion of our money.2
Yesterday, President Obama took an important first step, limiting pay at companies taking bailouts going forward.3 But Congress is considering going even further, applying the limits retroactively and even taking back some of the most extravagant bonuses at firms that took taxpayer money.4
Wall Street's defenders make all kinds of excuses about why the bonuses were justified. They say that bonuses are an accepted part of compensation packages on Wall Street, that those receiving bonuses weren't the ones who lost their firms billions of dollars, and that they need to pay bonuses to retain top talent.6 Those arguments are outrageous. If automatic bonuses are a part of Wall Street culture, that culture has to change—a firm that's still afloat only because of huge taxpayer bailouts shouldn't be paying bonuses. And while tens of thousands of Wall Street employees are losing their jobs, it's hard to believe that those still employed will go looking for new positions because they didn't get a bonus. Sen. McCaskill showed courage standing up to the status quo.
A huge public outcry will give them momentum and push them to real action and one of my favorites sites, MoveOn.org is sponsoring a petition and by signing it you can add your name and urge Congress to act now to rein in Wall Street greed.5
http://pol.moveon.org/bonus/o.pl?id=15503-10017720-TzPCyZx&t=3



Sources:
1. "McCaskill Proposes Compensation Cap For Private Companies Getting Federal Dollars," Senate Newsroom, January 30, 2009 http://mccaskill.senate.gov/newsroom/vid_013009.cfm
2. "What Red Ink? Wall St. Paid Fat Bonuses," The New York Times, January 28, 2009 http://www.nytimes.com/2009/01/29/business/29bonus.html
3. "Obama Outlines Limits on Executive Pay," The Washington Post, February 5, 2009 http://www.moveon.org/r?r=51145&id=15503-10017720-TzPCyZx&t=5
4. "Despite Treasury's New Rule, Senators Aren't Giving Up Their Push to Cap CEO Pay," TPMDC, February 4, 2009 http://www.moveon.org/r?r=51146&id=15503-10017720-TzPCyZx&t=6
5. Daniel Mintz, MoveOn.org Political Action
6."'Meet the Press' transcript for Feb. 1, 2009," MSNBC.com, February 1, 2009 http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/28964188/page/5/

I absolutely love shopping and free stuff.

I got these sunglasses for free today. They belong to stuff that's found in Constitution Hall and then every six months or so we have an employee-only auction for the items. I happened to go down there today and was lucky enough to see them setting up and then lady who runs it told me if I saw anything I liked I was welcome to it. Whoo-hoo for me!

Dear New York,

I want to start this letter off on a bright note. I’d love to thank you for a wonderful visit. You reminded me of why I fell in love with you in the first place.
Last summer was a terrible experience and although I’m forever changed in the way I see you I think I understand why the events transpired. Yes, we broke up 7 years ago and I moved onto a different city but it doesn’t mean that it was better or what we had was forgotten. In fact I always compare the new city and our relationship to what you and I had. I eventually grew to love this one as much as I loved you but I think I never really explained that to you because we did lose touch and for that I apologise. You were always so good to me and always took care of me and I turned my back on that. I can understand if you were angry but to treat me the way you did last summer belittled everything we once had. Wonderful summer vacations together, walks in the snow during amazing winter snowfalls, playing in the rain during beautiful spring showers and enjoying the fall clothes each year are some of my sweetest memories. You mean a lot to me and I thought I meant something to you too but last year could have been considered physical abuse. I felt so violated and I never felt that way before. So although I can’t forgive you for what you did to me I can and will move on. This was a beautiful trip and I have to admit that you made me fall in love with snow falls once again. I thank you for that. I hope my next trip here is just as amazing and I hope we can move forward together and learn to appreciate the new relationship we have. You are and always will be my first love.

Love always,
Nadine

My first blog...

...and I'm so excited I and now I have writers block. :/

No one in their right mind will probably read this but as Tim suggested I'd like to see if any of my "readers", and I use the term loosely, can figure out why I named my blog the way I did.